There is this thing called loneliness that I have come to know very well in my life. It started early, but it was not a scary loneliness – it was welcomed, and quite and comfortable. Now though the loneliness is dark and overwhelming and sometimes comes in waves that I cannot control. Most of the time it comes with panic attacks, and it feels so heavy that I cannot breathe. I don’t know how to fix it, though there are people who can keep the loneliness at bay.
My boyfriend is one of them, though I could never have guessed how hard it would be to be the girlfriend of a police officer. Anyone who has been in a relationship with a LEO knows the hardships they face, and the ones we face with them and by ourselves. There are so many days and nights that we spend alone, ruined plans weekend after weekend because of shifts that run over or mandatory overtime. They’re emotionally and physically drained from everything they deal with day in and day out, and we are too from dealing with the aftermath. Yet we learn to be strong, we learn to be independent and cherish the little bits and pieces of time that we do get with them. We kiss them hard every morning or night and remember that they’re out there being strong for everyone else, and that we have to be strong for them.
There are times that I feel incredibly alone being a police officer’s girlfriend, but there are some wonderful resources for us. National Police Wives Association is an awesome resource for anyone involved with a LEO, whether you’re a family member, wife or girlfriend. I always enjoy reading questions posed by new members and adding my voice to the many answers. I never hesitate to offer my friendship or shoulder to someone seeking help, especially in those situations. And I am here to offer the same thing – if any LEO wife, girlfriend, etc needs to talk or just vent I am always here. I’ll give you my email or phone number, because I know how lonely and difficult it can be. Us girls have to stick together!